The Aloof's Excusable Drama

I gave love but I got pain Should have let my brain win the game Should have not used my heart's foolishness Now, I'm left in the middle of wilderness. Her smile at me used to give me relief But now, it turned out to be a thief. A robber of happiness and a capturer of peace of mind Knowing that her smile is no longer mine. Taking care of her is supposed to be mine Loving her at my best, there's no way to decline. But what can I do, now that our paths have parted Could not let go the memories in my mind inculcated. The endearing call that my ears were accustomed to listen Appears to be echoing back in my system to deafen. The promises we've declared have drifted away And the reason why I'm holding on had ran away. I could not do anything but to only reminisce Because until now, I'm trapped in the past I miss I guess a long hard time is waiting before the end For my heart to finally move on and erase in my smile the pain.

Hiding the real me is very hard on my part There are schemes I can't let out in my heart There were things I was used to but now I can't do Because I'm afraid of criticisms they might tell so. Every other day that comes is another day of lies, Another day of deceit, and another day of being wise. Should I stop wearing masks on my face? Or I will still hide and just continue this pretense. Am I concealing myself or I just wanted to change it? I don't know, I'm confused, don't want to think about it. There are things inside of me for a long time I want to keep But I know they'll haunt me like nightmares when I'm asleep. I realized I'm giving my life limitations Always have to watch that I have the right actions. Can't even move well in this shell where I hid Can't even find my way out in this intricate labyrinth. I have to find myself and stop pretending For this is the only key to a new beginning But before putting th